Feel like crying~
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Seriously, when you feel like crying, you should start crying. It is not that you are ashamed by yourself and admitted your weakness. It is just that you need to let go of what you felt inside.
Sometimes when you get too comfort with peoples' surround you, you tend to be linen with your emotions. Sometimes too, they get overflowed with happiness: not until one day you realized it is just a bunch of bullshit and a liar.
Hahaha.. Then, what am I supposed to do? Feeling down as if there are no tomorrow? Please.. That's so not like me. I have plans for my future (repeat that back to myself).. I have plans and I need to strive to be success. I cannot let myself stuck with all those feelings that doesnt even worth considering. Am I fool for believing what I'd heard? Not what I see. Or truthfully needs to see. What a bad jokes that keeps playing inside my head? I need to stop all those bad jokes and concentrates back at myself. I miss my friends. Really needed them right now. I miss my mom. How I wanted to tell her that I love her and how stupid I am for being too trustful at someone. Yeah, I am a bad jokes and I am stupid. Not even considering how I would felt, how hurt I am when anything like this happened. I guard myself too much sometimes I wont even let someone come close to me. I closed my heart as if something bad will happen again. I cant stand being foolish all the time. That's why I'd done something terrible that I regret. But now, am I repeating the same mistakes or I just being selfish. I just cant stand being hurt. Let it be the only scar buried inside my heart that even times cannot heal. I cant afford to have the same scar hurting me. I wont survived that way. I wont be myself again. That's why I am shutting down myself. To my surrounding sometimes. And just let myself happy with the only people that I can trust. My family.
I am shitting at myself, proving that what I had done was wrong and yet I regret what I had done. Seriously I need to get out of this mess. To much pressure on my shoulder. I just need to keep myself clear with my plan. Just dont let others hurt you as much as you have been hurt. Still, I really wanted to cry, but tears wont come out. Just feel how stupid I am containing this feeling inside me. What a foolish person standing there inside of me..~
Chicas, seriously you need to focus. To yourself. And your future.. It just cant help it if you ____ __ ____, but please~!! be strong k. I love you.
Sometimes when you get too comfort with peoples' surround you, you tend to be linen with your emotions. Sometimes too, they get overflowed with happiness: not until one day you realized it is just a bunch of bullshit and a liar.
Hahaha.. Then, what am I supposed to do? Feeling down as if there are no tomorrow? Please.. That's so not like me. I have plans for my future (repeat that back to myself).. I have plans and I need to strive to be success. I cannot let myself stuck with all those feelings that doesnt even worth considering. Am I fool for believing what I'd heard? Not what I see. Or truthfully needs to see. What a bad jokes that keeps playing inside my head? I need to stop all those bad jokes and concentrates back at myself. I miss my friends. Really needed them right now. I miss my mom. How I wanted to tell her that I love her and how stupid I am for being too trustful at someone. Yeah, I am a bad jokes and I am stupid. Not even considering how I would felt, how hurt I am when anything like this happened. I guard myself too much sometimes I wont even let someone come close to me. I closed my heart as if something bad will happen again. I cant stand being foolish all the time. That's why I'd done something terrible that I regret. But now, am I repeating the same mistakes or I just being selfish. I just cant stand being hurt. Let it be the only scar buried inside my heart that even times cannot heal. I cant afford to have the same scar hurting me. I wont survived that way. I wont be myself again. That's why I am shutting down myself. To my surrounding sometimes. And just let myself happy with the only people that I can trust. My family.
I am shitting at myself, proving that what I had done was wrong and yet I regret what I had done. Seriously I need to get out of this mess. To much pressure on my shoulder. I just need to keep myself clear with my plan. Just dont let others hurt you as much as you have been hurt. Still, I really wanted to cry, but tears wont come out. Just feel how stupid I am containing this feeling inside me. What a foolish person standing there inside of me..~
Chicas, seriously you need to focus. To yourself. And your future.. It just cant help it if you ____ __ ____, but please~!! be strong k. I love you.
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it's ok, be strong. it's not d end of the world and we all tend to make mistakes either we realize it or not and we r not perfect to begin with, "imperfections are what making us perfect". Like my silat teacher always said, "Kita amat mudah meminta maaf tapi amat sukar untuk memberi maaf"
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